Not really feeling it

So today is my first day back in OB since losing little peanut. Let me tell you that I am not feeling it. It's not that I don't want other people to be happy, but it is just really difficult to put on a smiley face for those patients that are just finding out they are pregnant, or due around the same time as I was. I hope that no one feels that I am being harsh or ungrateful with this, I just needed to get it of my chest so that I could try to work through it. Thanks for listening.