Wish I were here:

I am so wishing that instead of the rain, ice, snow, and cold that I see out my window every morning, I could be enjoying these views. A girl can dream...RIGHT?

My Daily Horoscope

Aries

March 21 - April 19Go for the gold, dear Aries.
This day marks the beginning of the rest of your life.
Treat it with respect. You may find that you are on a crusade,
and that your combative instinct is working over-time.
There is a lot of fuel in your engine, so don't worry about running out.
The only thing you really need to be concerned about is possibly stepping on other people's toes. Make sure you consider how your actions are affecting others.

What does everyone think???

Little Peanut

These are the lyrics to the song "Glory Baby" by Watermark.

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby.
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby.
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…


Miss you everyday. Miss you in every way
But we know there’s aday when we will hold you We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away. When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see youWe will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting. But there is healing.
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…


BRIDGE:I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…


I love to hear this song that I heard about on the blog When Hello Means Goodbye. It makes me feel better to know that my little peanut is in heaven with her Grandpa.

Update

I just wanted to send out a quick note to let everyone know that Mom and I made it back to WI on Tuesday and she is resting comfortably at our house. Her Dr's visit went really well. She got her staples out, had an x-ray that looked great, and was fitted with a boot. Still no weight on that ankle for 6 more weeks, but we will do whatever it takes to make it better. She will be staying with us until the middle of April, with one visit to MI March 20th for a Dr's appointment.

Lastly, we just wanted to thank everyone for their support, thoughts, and prayers for both my Mom and Mike and I's loss. We will keep everyone updated on progress.

Trials of an only Child

As many of you know, I am an only child. This is not a bad situation to be in most of the time, but in circumstances of sickness and trauma, it is a lot to bare. This is the story of my very interesting week, and the reason why I am stuck in Holland without Internet access until Tuesday.

My week started out on a very shaky note, with a call from my mother saying she had fallen on the ice and "hurt her ankle". After a few hours and one very scary looking X-ray, I got a call from an ER doc saying the ankle was broken in 3 places and needed surgery ASAP. To this I instructed them to wait until I got there and took off for, the supposed to take, 5 hour drive to Holland. Including picking up Mike at work it took us 4 hours the get to the hospital, and we arrived just as they were wheeling her to surgery. Luck was on our side...we thought!!

After one night in the hospital we had devised a great plan that would get Mike and I back to work on Thurs and Mom to a safe place where she wouldn't have to be alone, our house. Unfortunately, the Dr. vetoed that plan on Tuesday by saying that Mom couldn't endure the ride to WI for 1 week.

So, here I am in a noisy Panera Bread, using the Internet, and trying to get some time to myself. The last 3 days have been nothing but taking Mom to the bathroom, getting her stuff, and watching TV. Don't get me wrong, I love to be lazy at times, but this is getting to me and with 4 more days to go I may need medicinal help to endure. Following a post op appointment on Tues I will be bringing Mom back to WI to live with us for the 6-8weeks she has to stay off the ankle.

If any friends or family out there are going to be around on Saturday or Sunday and are looking for something to do give me a call, I have time. Thanks for listening to me whine, I should get back to "work". Kate

One Week

Today it has been one week since I lost my first little peanut. One week of grieving for someone that we never really knew, but loved dearly. This one week has been filled with a roller coaster of emotions and many moments of confusion. Confusion over not only what to tell friends and family, but about what to expect from my own body. This next few months will be a waiting game and I am TERRIBLE at waiting. The only thought that has brought me comfort this week is that my little peanut is safe in heaven with her grandpa (my father) who passed away 3 years ago. I know that he will take great care of her and she is blessed to know him. Thanks to everyone who called, wrote, sent cards, and prayed. I am blessed to have so many people out there who care. Kate

I thought I would leave you with one of Peanut's friends: This is Leon the Lion, her first toy.

Extreme Loss

I write this post with tears in my eyes. It seems like crying is what I've done a lot of this weekend. Just a few days ago Mike and I were extremely excited and looking forward to announcing to friends and family that we were expecting our first baby. After a year of trying we were finally blessed with a positive test on Jan. 17th. Since then we had been getting more excited by the day and had been finding it difficult to not tell everyone that we know and love our great news. Unfortunately, our little one was not healthy and was not able to stay with us. Friday when I woke up I knew that something was wrong and a trip to the Dr. confirmed that we had suffered a miscarriage. Now we are grieving the loss of our little peanut by trying to focus on the good things in our life, while looking forward to trying again in the future. I would like to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. Please continue to pray and keep us in their thoughts. Kate